Have you seen the amazing “Try” video by Colbie Caillat? I have had this song stuck in my head all morning as I pondered what to write. I finally realized that I needed to make a deep and dark confession.
I dieted over the summer. Scratch that. I attempted a diet over the summer.
Hubby and I decided, after a recommendation from a friend, to go on Ideal Protein. I won’t bore you with the specifics, but suffice to say that this was the first real diet I had ever done. Shocking since I’m a 30 year old female, right? But dieting is not my thing, nor has it ever been.
Working with a bunch of women I see daily the newest fad diets. Whole 30. Shakes. Protein powders. Cleanses. Everything. Up until this summer I had managed to steer clear. But something prompted me to attempt this Ideal Protein diet. Something sinister.
Hubby and I signed up (fail #1) by paying a crazy amount of money and receiving a few complimentary pre-packaged foods to try. Did they taste good? Some. Did this diet work? Yes. I lost 6 pounds within days. So why did I stop?
Never in my life had I been so unhappy. Each day I awoke only to instantly start thinking about food. What would I have for breakfast? How long until I could have lunch? Did I want my allotted snack in the morning or after dinner? I was absolutely miserable. At the end of the week I finally told hubby that I would prefer fat to sad.
So why did I jump on the fad diet bandwagon? I suppose, after seeing certain coworkers always attempting these diets, I wanted to give it a try. Deep down, though, I know that I love to eat whatever I want. I just need to balance that with moderation and exercise.
As I listened to Colbie Caillat’s song I again began questioning myself. Why did I try so hard? Why am I so afraid of being myself? I like who I am, and while I would prefer to lose some weight, it does not define me as a person. I should work out because, ultimately, I feel better emotionally. My anxiety is lowered and I have a happier outlook. If I lose some poundage, great. If I don’t, that’s okay too. I don’t have to try so hard.
What do you try so hard? Does it make you happy? What are you going to accept about yourself today?
Top: LC by Lauren Conrad for Kohls (old)
Bottoms: emerald skinny pants from The Limited (very recent and these were 40% off too)
Bracelet: J Crew Factory